Young Girl…
Dear Diary,
This week is kinda like a shorter week, all thanks to the Vesak Day holiday on Monday. Keep having illusions that I started the work week on Monday when it was a holiday.
Today is bad-Wednes-minton-day! Got thrashed MISEARABLY by all the people I played against. First it was 2 rounds of mixed doubles against Ranjit & Siang Hock, then it was another 2 rounds of mixed doubles with Ranjit & Brother Seng Guan. Followed by another 2 rounds of mixed doubles against Ranjit & Benson and finally, 2 rounds of singles against Brother Seng Guan. What’s wrong? I wish I knew. Even Ranjit told me I’m not myself today.
Recently, it has been a low morale, down & out state of me. It all began when I realised that no matter how hard I train, I may never reach that level required in the upcoming CCG. Sometimes it’s kinda difficult to handle this kinda “wet blanket” syndrome. Guess it has sorta gotten into me. To make matters worst, I think I’ve injured my right leg after last Sunday’s badminton training, and my hands actually went numb on me a few times during the games. I’m kinda like mixed with being demoralised, exasperated, and what have you… I don’t know what’s happening to me either… I proposed to Coach Hassan to drop me off the list just now. Guess he must have caught wind of my “wet blanket” syndrome. A jovial man as he always is, he kept encouraging me not to give up. So did Brother Seng Guan when I told him about it. I’m really trying my best too.
Hmmm, think if Abang Achman reads this he would most likely come up with some cheesy lines of encouragement or comments, knowing his cheeky character. *lol*
I’m playing this song as my fingers relate my thoughts. And if it’s quite alright, I think it will be playing in my heart for quite a while… 
The Voice Within - Christina Aguilera
Young girl, don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it’s all right
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly
When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there’s no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you’re gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you’re lost outside look inside to your soul
When there’s no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah…
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
You’ll make it
You’ll make it
Just don’t go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I’m talking to you
When there’s no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
