Gwendolyn Arnauld Elfglitter

Just yesterday, I thought perhaps it is about time that I should try to pick myself up. Today, someone dear said something. Something which touched the sore spot of mine. But deep within, despite the inflicted pain, I know what he said is true. His words did not hurt me as much as it forced out what I’ve always wanted to keep hidden… It’s not that I do not want to do anything about this complication. Sometimes, somethings are better left untouched and let it be buried with time. In this way, both parties will remain remote, in a way…

For all the time that “my soul was dead, my body mortified and my heart crushed to smitherins”, I was deeply hurt by love itself and thereafter, chose to shut myself from the rest of the world, to stop loving love…

Friends been telling me that they saw this who with his who… Not sure if it’s becuz I’m already numb, but as time goes by. I don’t seem to feel too disturbed by it anymore… Still, I don’t feel love, for the simple fact that I’m afraid to. This frustrates all those who have been caring for me for the longest of time… My favoritest fren, Steph, my best fren - Luke, to name a few… Of cuz, there’s my dear “gay” BF - Kitson… I may take some time to return you that lively and cheery Fer but I’ll try to achieve that ASAP ok? It’s not gonna be easy so be patient and big-hearted with me ok…?

Here’s to the someone of my past. Just like how you’ve moved on, I will no longer linger like a fool on our past anymore.

My best wishes and blessings to you.

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忘了夜里几点，

你出现在电话另一边。

说分手后已很久不见，

忽然有想念。

忘了是第几遍，

你出现在这样一个夜。

说你感到一点点后悔，

有点想挽回。

可笑的是我，

听千遍万遍还无法防备。

*Chorus*

别再说我还在你心里面，

别再说你对我还有依恋。

不要再说着我熟悉的谎言，

因为我还会期待它们实现。

别再用你的柔情和笑颜，

别再说应该留在我身边。

不要再对我说重复的谎言，

因为我还会再次陷在里面。

啊….

Repeat *Chorus* x 2

我是永远的愚人…